My Perfectly Imperfect Life

Dear Graduation,

I seriously can NOT wait for June 3rd! I can taste freedom, graduation will be awesome! I finally got everything for college ready and a job! :))) Everything with Jayson is piecing together but i’m happy where we are. Although i wish my relationship with my parents would get better, i know it won’t and im just ready to move on with my life and finally be happy! Graduation please hurry!

Love, Samantha

Oh how I loathe reading Frankenstein. Today we had a major test on Frankenstein, chapters one through twelve; I have read nothing. Every time I pick up this little black book and begin reading I can’t help but fall asleep. I wish I could enjoy this book but it bores me. I read the spark notes summary just so I wouldn’t fail and felt better about taking the test. Got into English and panicked that I was about to fail a major test! Mrs. Condrey passed out the test and as I began taking it, it seemed so easy… Too easy! I knew I must have bombed it if it seemed that easy to me. Praying that it turns out to be at least a B…

So today in Economics Mr. Meyer told Kim that she reminded him of his sister! Poor Kim now she has no love and is left with a broken heart! Lmao as we laugh about her broken heart he stares at us wondering why and she cries from laughing making him feel bad. This moment was hilarious and now she has no love in her future. At graduation she will tell him of this funny day and hopefully he will laugh and not be creeped out… Wow this has made my day and hopefully it’ll make someone else laugh. I love you Kim, you’ll find love again!

So I went and looked at my grades online to see how my classes are, and when i looked at my  grade for cheer class my jaw dropped! I had a FIVE in the class! how the hell do you make a five in a class where you do nothing but sit and talk?! ugh I’m so ready to graduate and just be done with all this and move on to to college!

I’m 18 and have no clue whats next in my life, this thought scares me but I still move on. I have no car = no job = no money for anything. I’m scared all these things will keep me from attending college, “what will I do without getting a degree?” I constantly ask myself. I don’t want to be a lazy bum like the older people I am friends with. I WANT to go to college and get my education to be somebody in life but how do you do that with the way the economy is now? Scholarships only do so much unfortunately. I know my parents don’t have the money, their barely making it now so how would they afford more? I plan to go to Blinn College in Bryan and get a degree as a Dental Hygienist, work as that and move to a dental school close by to start my schooling to become a certified dentist. Creating smiles is my dream; right now. I’ve changed what I want to do so many times, I finally settled on this. It makes enough money to keep me happy and pay for everything i need. Just trying to finish out my last month of senior year and then we’ll see where life takes me…